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got new binder in the mail today. doesnt fit right yet but it will soon tbh. down almost 60 lbs after all. only keeps going down so. yeah. im excited bc its different than my previous ones. it has clasps and is sturdier so i think it will make me flatter. ive only ever had pullover binders before tbh. also my parents are actually considering funding at least part of my gender therapy so i can get on hormones. yeah!
hoofies: (um what)
ive completed one commission and sketched another one and one owed works and worked on lining a print design and i still feel like im worthless and didnt so jack shit today. fuck me and my stupid emotions man. im tired of this shit. 
hoofies: (why this)
mom asks me to throw away rotten food and i tell her i cant bc its gross and ill throw up and i cant throw up bc my stomach is in stitches and i could hurt myself horribly. 10 mins after she gets rly mad at me for being 'lazy' she comes in saying she made herself ill throwing away rotten food. :-0 dang its like i was right and u did need to be more accommodating. oh wait no. still mad. i should i have just thrown up and maybe destroyed my intestines. nbd. 
hoofies: (thinkening)
im planning on cosplaying blu sniper to ala in jan  2015... im gonna make my own croc o style kit like the hat and backpack thingy. and im gonna cosplay bro strider maybe also. next weekend i plan to go and look for materials for the props stuff. idk if i cant do it like ill just commission some fursuit person maybe idfk. something. im gonna be rad... i cn feel it. 

why parent

May. 25th, 2014 09:23 pm
hoofies: (gross no)
tryin ta explain to my mom how her saying the ucsb shooter did what he did bc he was disabled hurts me more than it excuses his actions or makes the matter 'complicated'. like it just makes me think she thinks i would go out there and shoot people for not dating me. like its some common thing for us. 
hoofies: (omg)
i am excited about a lot of things i get to do the more my weight diminishes post surgery. so im making a list for motivation purposes. to keep me on track. because every reason other people suggest i stay on track is bogus. 
  • take weed selfies. yknow like those gifs of white ppl smoking. thats gonna b me. 
  • go to conventions
  • wear cosplay
  • wear fashions ive always wanted to rock
  • exercise without worry of looking like some fat low level with 0 commitment
  • pass as male
  • not overheat from double binding in summer time
  • get on t
  • get a regular job probably


May. 25th, 2014 01:12 pm
hoofies: (omg)
so i have a lot of online places i sell things but normally the only ones that gather any return revenue are my etsy and my commissions on tumblr and deviantart. but i just finally sold enough stuff on redbubble to get a payment next month. which is good. i feel accomplished. 

im also planning on going about preparing for my first spell casting. which involves me burning holy wood in my room sometime when my parental units are away. tomorrow i will do this. and then once i buy enough candle holders, and some more things for my altar, i can perform a spell. i forget what i was planning to cast. something with lots of candles. i think it was for ensurance of healing from my surgery. but ive mostly done that naturally. 

thinking on witchy stuff, i do think my patron diety is poseidon. i feel like a sea witch. 


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